Mama I'm coming home, for the last time?

Been so so long since I last wrote anything, been kinda on hiatus for a while living my life and chugging along this road. I don't actually think anyone reads this anymore (I think at my height of popularity there were maybe 2) but alas, this is kinda for me to save for my own record and was never really meant to serve any other purpose. I like reading back on some of my prior posts...oh the anger! But hell, we've had a lot to be angry about over the past few years. Feeling that blood pump reminds you that you're alive and well in this world. But nonetheless, funny to remember that time and place, but still there are things that get me boiling today (as illustrated below).

I still look up funny ass video clips (I highly recommend BREAK.COM for anyone who is like-minded) and I'm still just as political as I've always been. And of course I'm watching this upcoming election like a redneck watching NASCAR, minus the beer and wife-beating. But today I'm writing about my grand return to the great state of Michigan. I will be there for the first time in 2 years, arriving exactly one month from today. This time though, I smartened up a bit. I'll be renting a car from the airport as soon as I land, and will be keeping my wheels until right before I board my flight back home to Portland-land. Automobile independence is key to a happy "me" in Michigan. Also, this will be my partner's first time there, to experience all the glory that is the Great Lake State. He's been a little frightened of my tales of the homeland (he is from Montana), and this will be his first time within an environment such as Saginaw. But anyhoo, we will be braving the forest.

So I've had a bit of an aversion to traveling back to my home state. Not fully sure why, I mean I've missed my family and the few friends I still manage to maintain contact with there. But still, for the longest time I'd just get a very slight sick feeling when I'd think of going back there. After 8 years here, has Oregon made me soft? I guess we'll see when I get there, eh? But since buying my tickets home, the feeling had diminished and I could genuinely say that I have excitment to go back. It will be nice to get a reminder of my old life, and I'll actually be celebrating my 31st b-day there. I haven't had a birthday in Michigan since 2000. So this will be a bit of a milestone for me. And there are 2 new babies that I haven't yet seen, so that will be nice. But then a little chat I had with someone slapped me back into reality and reminded me of why I got the hell out.

I had a bit of a strange comment at a birthday party I was at last night regarding my upcoming visit. It was with a younger woman, who happens to be a lesbian and partnered for several years. They are you quintessential upwardly-mobile young queer folks (GUPPIES), she's teaching at the local university and her partner is finishing up medical school. But she stated that unfortunately she "can not and will not" visit Michigan, as it has some of the most aggressive anti-gay laws of any state in our union. Then my mind went back to that stupid-ass constitutional ammendment the voters passed in 2004 which:

" made the union between a man and a woman the only agreement recognized as a marriage "or similar union for any purpose." Those six words led to the court fight over benefits for gay couples. "

And guess what, on May 8th the Michigan Supreme Court has ruled that universities, private companies, ANY entity that had previously offered benefits for same-sex couples are not allowed to do so based on the decision made by Michigan's voters. So basically, gay people cannot ever provide health insurance coverage for their partner, regardless of what the employer will permit. This absolutely disgusts me. And I had tried to justify this as "well, this must be an unintended consequence that the voters could not have been able to foresee". But when you look at those above words "or similar union for any purpose", there is no way any half-wit wouldn't be able to foresee what this law would do. And still, a large majority actually voted to make this hatred not just law, but they made it a PART OF THE FUCKING CONSTITUTION.

So if a gay couple from California, Oregon, Washington, Vermont, Massachusetts, or any of the other states who actually give rights to committed gay couples, if they were to visit Michigan and one of the two was critically injured, the other partner has no rights. The hospital could deny visitation, regardless of the relationship and life they have together. There are several nightmare scenarios that could happen to a queer couple in the state, it goes much farther than health insurance. This saddens me more than I can express, but mostly because of what this really means to the big picture of my future travels to that state...there will be none.

Until that amendment is overturned, I will not step foot in that state again. This is going to be an extremely hard conversation to have with my family, but I really feel that this is an important stand that I have to make. As a gay man, as an American, this is something that I cannot compromise on. I will buy my parents tickets every two years to fly out here, but as a matter of principle I cannot let this go. And I want to make sure that those in my family who voted for this measure (and I know there are at least a few) know the extent of oppression they are responsible for. I want them to think of the sick man who lies in pain with no medical care, the woman who looses her house and has to declare bankruptcy due to an unexpected cancer, all because of the hatred they voted to make a part of their state's constitution. All because that person is gay, because that person is like me. Some will think I'm being a bit dramatic, but I will tell them to get a fucking clue. Until you have been that person, you do not know.

Suddenly, that sick feeling is back.

REPUBLICAN PERVERTS!!!! Thank god for truth.

So wow, another conservative involved in a nasty little sex scandal. So how many republicans has it been over the past year? Now you must click on every purple link her to actually get the stories. You couldn't make this shit up. So first, the one everyone heard about...the infamous man himself Mark Foley...gay as shit and trying to hit it with an underage intern. Classy, and he was such a "republican protector of the children." Yeah right pervert. Then there was "diaper" David Vitter, the republican senator from Louisiana who was all about family values. Couldn't say enough nasty things about Bill Clinton for the whole Lewinski thing. Such a patron saint, right? Who would have guessed the asshole was a fucking JOHN! An admitted prostitute regular, who liked to wear fucking DIAPERS with his whores!! Funny thing, no calls for his resignation (but he's not queer, so not as bad as WEARING DIAPERS right?). Next, Florida Republican Rep Bob Allen, also the head of grandpa McCain's Florida election committe, was busted trying to pay a MALE cop money to let the fat bastard suck his dick (but the cop was scary and black, so here was so scared that he had to ASK HIM IF HE COULD GIVE HIM MONEY TO SUCK HIS DICK!) Sorry state of racial relations today, huh?

So how could this get any worse...well it did with the most recent of republican "hollier than thou" fuckers. Another fucking disgusting hypocrite, REPUBLIAN Larry Craig...Senator for the great bigotted state of Idaho...was busted trying to solicit gay sex in the bathroom of an airport.

Now I've heard this "pro-family, anti-gay, christian" asshole was gay for years on the liberal blogs, testimonials from his "tricks" and all. But no, no sucha thang missis Celie! So WOW...how's that for you. Again, those of us in the know, actually knew the truth! (Kinda like the Iraq war!!!...and that was in the YEAR leading up to it you fucking ignorant assholes! I do blame you, BUSH VOTERS) Still haven't forgotten that, and never will, and yes, you must pay for years to come...you know who you are.

So pay attention idiot Americans! Do you see a pattern here? Assholes, preaching hate against against gay people, in order to gain the IGNORANT VOTE. And what do they have to show for it? THIS...another repblican hypocrite. And this one, a pastor who hated HOMOSEXUALS, and by god...he ended up being a prostitute hiring pervert. The sheer happiness I get from this kind of story is amazing. Its so great to let his facade of hatred crumble and fall. False Idols Shall Fall By The Wayside. And they do, and they will.

The Ignorant ASSHOLE republicans have built their own prison, and by god may that rot in it. They have used the hatred of differences as a base of their belief system, their "base", and now those very same differences are coming to bite them in the ass. And they will continue to gnaw until every last one of them has fallen off into shame. BURN IN HELL FUCKERS.

I have much more to write on this, and I will. Stay tuned till the next addition kids! And sorry if my last rant was a bit too much, but I was angry and for the most part still stand 100% behind the anger I presented. Toodaloo.

Another Texan for pres? Only if your a complete fucking idiot.

Another G.W. rant...sorry if I offend...but I must. So....

Hello all!

So something still boggles my mind after all these many years of reality that have been flung in our faces. At this point, how could someone still support W? He is currently the third least popular president in American History, and he's only like 3 points from becomming the most unpopular in our entire history of polling this question. (Little side note...guess who's #4 in line for that honor....the other Bush, big daddy himself). So with like 18 months to go, I have no doubt in my mind that he will make it, finally....number one at something, right?

Now where my mind gets boggled is the fact that 25% of the american public still approve of this murder. This liar, this deceiver, this rich fuckhead who is responsible for killing almost 3,500 Americans and approximately 150,ooo iraqi's....but they don't matter right? What about 9-11 huh? Fucking commie liberals...just want to lay down and take it. Don't think, just act! That's the american way right? We can kill 3 million gukes and the world keeps turning....so what's a couple of HUNDRED-Thousand brown people. Their scum, just terrorists...and remember, their not white christians, and republicans only count them as1/2 a person, dont' they at this point? So that's only about 75,000 "real" people we've killed.

Guess what that shows us....republicans are bigotted murderes. Period. No sugar coating. No way to look them in the eye and pretend to understand their point of view anymore. I'll say it, I have grown so angry. I HATE CONSERVATIVES, sorry, a bit biased, but to "dislike" or "disagree with" them is too weak a word. And if there is any group of people worth using that word on...it's bigotted, ignorant, small minded conservatives. They are not the conservatives of yesteryear. They are not in favor of individual rights...they have become the facists of today. They support anything the government wants to do to the people, as long as they claim it is in the name of "national security". How dumb must you be. And, believe me...I'm related to a few of these people who still like the guy (W incase you forgot). So please kin folk, forgive me when I say you are fucking stupid, and probably don't even deserve the right to vote anymore. HOW DUMB MUST YOU BE?

This whole administration has been shown to be the most corrupt in american history, every fucking aspect of it. Over, and over, and over, and over again. How many times must you see it before your thick ass heads can agree. TURN OFF FOX NEWS, they lie. And some of you have actually attended at least a little bit of college, so are you choosing ignorance on purpose? Is it easier that way? Do you hate gay people enough and do you feel SO strongly against a women's right to choose that you'd support a "nazi-esque regime" in order to attain these goals? THERE IS NOTHING "CHRISTIAN" ABOUT G.W. BUSH. Where is your brain? No saving graces, nothing positive to be remembered by. How in the hell are you hanging on to this man's rhetoric? TREASON, you are comitting treason. The founding fathers would spit in your face, and then ask for your hanging.

I hope to god when this administration ends, they are CRIMINALLY prosecuted. Nothing less would suffice. I'd love to see G.W. in a middle eastern prison. I'd make me crack a smile and put that gleem back in my eye. And if you disagree (I'll be the tyrant for this moment!) you should be prosecuted too. Charged, IGNORACE, HOMICIDAL ignorace, for your idiocy has contributed to the thousands of deaths that this war has caused. "Dixie Traitors"...remember that? Merely because these EDUCATED women did not believe that America should ATTACK A NATION UNPROVOKED? They were threatened, boycotted, and ridiculed. IDIOTS. Because these beautiful, talented musicians did not want this war to happen, YOU attacked them, called them "un-american", when in reality...you were the stupid puppets. YOU were the pieces of ignorant shit. YOU cast the first stone at them, and they were correct, justified, completely right. How utterly ignoratnt you must feel. MURDERERS. That's what they call us now, all around the world...thanks in large part to you. I hope you sleep well. Your judgement day will come.

So anyhoo, had to vent. This war rages on, and my anger continues to grow. Hope you still like me! Thanks and I hope all is well...UNLESS YOU VOTED FOR SATAN!!! HA HA HA!!!!! ...just kiddin.

30 and still kickin! Where's the beef?

(Haven't written in a whilel, been busy.....sorry, New House. So much for new year's resolution eh?)

So this evening, after midnight, I turned 30 years old. Not a big deal, right...still kinda young. Well, at least according to anyone older than 30. Both of my best friends and my partner have all turned 30 during the past 9 months. So I've basically felt 30 for quite a while now, by witnessing so many of my own pass that milestone. BUT, now that I'm actually the big 3-0, I don't really feel any different. So what gives?

Age is just a number, right? So why don't I feel this actual shifting of the grounds...no life changing realizations. I mean, I've met the superficial goals of this age that I had set for myself...I have a house and I'm well planted in a career with a master's degree. I have a cute dog, and live in a great city. I love my family, and have their full support and acceptance regarding who I am and who I love (something I'd tirelessly worry about prior to comming out at age 18). Everything is where I had wanted it to be in my 17 year old brain...foretelling my life while putting away frozen food at Kessel's on State street. I'm living with someone who loves me. Not just the "me" I put out durring everyday conversation and function, but he loves ALL of me. Every fucking nook and cranny. He accepts it all and treats me like the king of all shit, and lucky am I to have found that. So, put a check on that box.

So yeah, things are looking pretty good. I might be now entered into my next decade, but I'm ready and willing to go wherever that may take me. Maybe a child...but maybe not. We'll see. I kinda like having the freedom I do, and I'm not sure how I'd handle the change....but being a part of another life on this planet may be enought to entice. And I'd raise a good one, presidential material. So why deprive the world right? So within this posting, I guess I've answered what 30 means...it's just a time to take stock. See what you have, versus what you want, if anything just becuase the first digit has changed. So for that, I don't feel sad and I'm ready to push on full speed ahead. Can't wait till I'm 40, and what sorts of shit I'll be writing then.

Good night and good luck. And I do love today's political climate, the dems have taken over and we'll see what happens. President Obama, but maybe Pres H. Clinton, with VP Obama. I'd be happy with either. Keep you fingers crossed and VOTE! Either way, NO MORE REPULICANTS!!!!

Funny Little Tid-Bit

Check out this take on the Cheney/Blitzer exchange about Cheney's prego lesbian daughter. This is hillarious. Enjoy.

Conservatards eat shit! The Chicks Swept the Grammy Awards!

Last night's Grammy Awards were like watching the superbowl for me. I absolutely loved seeing the Dixie Chicks win all awards they were up for...including the TOP THREE CATEGORIES OVERALL! They deserved this so much, and I hope Nashville is hanging it's bigotted, ignorant, inbread, uneducated, mullet having head today. And the Chick's performace was really good. One a whole, the Grammy's were a little better this year...somewhat faster paced with more emphasis on actual music performances. I had been waiting to see the Chicks kick some ass at last nights show since their album came out. There is no denying, Taking The Long Way is a GREAT album, EVERY SONG is good....and that is a rarity. This wasn't merely a "political statement" by the music industry (as right wingnuts...or my new favorite "conservatards" are undoubtedly going to be using as their "GOP talking point of the day), but these ladies deserved every single award they got. Let me steal a line (or gesture) by the late, great Johnny Cash after he won his grammy a few years ago "FUCK YOU NASHVILLE". Your time has passed, either evolve or become even more obsolete than you already are.

Moe betta hurtin....

I've been inspired. I went in search of some funny clips of people smackin shit. Here's one compilation....WARNING: The previos clip has a hideous soundtrack (creed people) but funny as shit people biting it.

Proof that blonde's can hurt people.

As an aryan specimen of the homosapien population, I find this clip particularly amusing. Blondes hurt people. I laughed my ass off, you've got to watch it two or three times, minimum.

A Lame Tribute to ANNA NICOLE...but at least I tried.

The woman was tormented, kinda dumb, but sweet as fucking rubarb (with some sugar). Fame, money, and the American Media killed that woman, and I stand by that. Wether or not she off'ed herself or not, she was ready to go...at least in a way. She lost the love of her life...her son. He gave her a strength she could never replace with anyone else, and she knew it. And all the attention payed to her every move, the constant negative coverage...and she was being sued by approximately 3 different entities at this point in time...the woman had some abnormal stressprs knocking at the door. She was an actual victim of the American way...born white trash...escalated to almost "royalty" type status in America, then was torn down by the actual system that made her. She was the epidemy of the underdog. Some of us actually kinda rooted for her, and some of us honestly are sad that she is gone. Rest in Peace Anna, and godspeed angel. You have been an ally of the queer community from day one, and we will not forget that.

A link you NEED to read.

Please read this post by a woman in Michigan. It says it all. Fucking bigots. This shit affects more than you'd guess.

Bigotry, Michigan Style

Just a quick link to a posting from the "Daily Kos" blog about that 2004 same-sex marriage ban that was passed by the voters in Michigan. I'm from there, still have many people I love who live there...so it causght my eye. Well folks, it is having sweeping consequences that go far beyond simply protecting the "sanctity of marriage" in the Great Lakes State. The law prohibits any form of civil unions, and even the existance of health insurance benefits, ANY TYPE of benefits for a same-sex partner...even if it was previously offered by an employer. That law makes me ashamed to be from that place and reminds me of why I got the hell out and will never live there again.

Granted, Oregon passed a similiar law that same year (Measure 36). But the big difference was that the Oregon law only definied "marriage", it did nothing to prohibit civil unions or partner benefits of any kind. And it didn't pass by that much (43.5% opposed the ban) and that was after Multnomah County (YAY PORTLAND!) and Benton County started actually marrying gay couples. So if the Oregon vote had failed, we would have had FULL GAY MARRIAGE rights in this state...meaning that 43.5% of Oregonians were in favor of immediate gay MARRIAGE rights in our state in 2004. And now, we're expected to have a real civil unions law passed in Oregon fairly soon. It would have happened earlier, but the Republican controlled State House of Representatives would not even let the civil unions bill come to a floor vote last year. Well, now the Dems have taken back the Oregon House and an actual vote is not far away. And Govenor Kulongoski has stated he will sign it into law. GOD I LOVE THE WEST COAST!

While Michigan had no "gay marriage threat" looming. The citizens (59 %) voted for this measure strictly out of hatred for gay people. There is no other way to phrase it...it was a vote of complete hatred and bigotry. And what hurts me is that I KNOW several members of my own family voted for this measure. That's the type of shit that makes me not want to really to be back there that often.

So anyhoo, on a brighter note on that topic...a "gay marriage ban" failed for the first time this past election cycle in Arizona. This show's how much the general public is evolving on this issue. Time will tell, but my guess is that we will have full gay marriage rights within the next 10-20 years. So we can be just as unhappy as the rest of yous! :)

Quickie....

Hey there. Sorry I haven't posted more recently, but I've been SHIT ASS busy with the house, work, puppy, and just trying to maintain somewhat of a personal life. But I came across this Dan Savage article regarging Mary Cheney, and her "controversial" lesbian pregnancy. He does a great job at pointing out the bitch's disgusting display of hipocracy. Point is, SHE WORKS TO FURTHER A POLITICAL PARTY THAT HATES HER, and does not think she is fit to raise a child. She's a stupid asshole. Period. And check out these clips from the Daily Show about how ol'Dickie himself responds to these attacks on his daughter from his own handlers. Basically he doesn't.

Only 13 days until me and Justin leave for KEY WEST!!!!! WOO FUCKING HOO! We are both in need of a vacation and niether of us has ever been there. It will be nice to leave Portland, house, work, dog, responsibility behind for 5 days...and sit on the beach and have a margarita! I hope it's nice when we're there, but even if it's a little rainy...we'll still have a great time. With all this fucked up climate shit going on...who knows anymore. It's cold when it's supposed to be hot, hot when it's supposed to be cold...etc. Everyone seems to have accepted that global warming is a reality, except of coarse the idiots in the Whitehouse.

And lastly, check out this "Special Comment" by one of my personal hero's Keith Olbermann. The man is a genius and says things that other broadcasters are scared to say. ***REMEMBER FOLKS**** his show Countdown with Keith Olbermann is on Monday thru Friday night's 8pm (Eastern), 5pm (Pacific)...then again at midnight (Eastern), 9pm (Pacific)...on MSNBC. His news show is the best on TV right now, I don't miss it when I'm home by 5pm (8pm eastern time). Anyways, enought of the gooing...Olbermann basically disects the the lies that Shrubby spewed during his State of the Union catastrophe. I actually watched it...and my god, baby Bush is truly a pathetic soul. May he burn eternally for all the pain, death, and destruction he is personally responsible for. Karma's a bitch...and to think of what that man has coming his way. I wouldn't want to be in an elevator with the bitch.

Take care....